I am a huge believer in New Year - New Me and usually this tends to bring all sorts of disappointments. People don’t magically change at the strike of midnight. It feels different this year however with no disappointments yet, and I believe there are two reasons. First, my goals and resolution are full not only of things I want to achieve but also things I want to feel. Second, my year’s subwords are small things often.
January was wonderful, but I have barely noticed it, so quickly it went by. Writing these little notes is a good way to keep track, measure actions and emotions, amount of bread eaten and tv series watched (both a lot).
In February I want more of home cooked meals, slow workouts, comfort books, evening strolls and morning pages. I haven’t done morning pages in months and it used to be my favourite practice. I want less of alkohol. January was anything but dry for me, with my partner’s family being here, so it will be nice to take a pause, even if for a few days. I know, I know, very ambitious.
I also want more of early hours. Mornings when I wake up first, a couple of hours before Fredrik, are my favourite. I love sitting in the dark with a cup of coffee and a journal. I love how quiet it is, how the world just feels differently: softer and gentler. It’s easier to think, easier to meditate, easier to quiet the mind. I want to work more with my hands: make art, do puzzles, paint furniture or the walls. I want to learn how to knit. I am watching a girl on tiktok who studies at Royal school of needlework (yes, it’s a university with a real degree, how amazing is that) and she makes me want to start doing embroidery again.
So may things to do, so little time.
Short Reads
Ovaries are an enigma that could unlock human lifespan
The big idea: is compassion fatigue real?
A place where heartbreak feels good
A cunning plan to save the planet and museums all at once
Living in Brooklyn on $466k joint income
Everyone’s a sellout now
Listen and watch
I cook dinner usually while listening to a podcast, right now it’s 'Sentimental garbage.' I absolutely adore it. It’s like having a chat with your best friend while drinking cosmopolitans.
We are still on the second season of Dark, and it gets more and more complex. But with all the time travel, God’s particles and nuclear power plants, I love how at its core is the desire to belong and the question of free will. That’s what makes it such a good (and hard) watch, I think, is exactly that — the sense of never quite belonging. And, well, the most insane plot twists.
Food
The cooking highlights of the past week were Fesenjan - Persian pomegranate chicken - and a chocolate cake I made for Fredrik’s uncle’s birthday, both delicious.

